Wednesday, September 28, 2011

Trying to be a good mom

People said the best parenting advice came from people who don't have kids.. I believe its true because when I have my own kids, i've followed non of the advice, give non but shared a lot of happy memories with other mom.

I've read few books on parenting tips but in the end, you know your kids and the best way to do it is by "redah-je-with-knowledge" concept. there is no right or wrong way.. just the best that we can do for our kids and lots and lots of pray that they will turn out ok.. just like when we were little how we hate our mom and dad's way of bringing us up but we grown up to be who we are because of them?

sometimes i kind of regret not spending more time with them. but then again, i should take full advantage of the time that i have with them so that every moments counts. i wish they will remember the good times they had with their ibu when they grow up.

i'm not perfect. i have my ups and downs. i'm a bit "garang' with them sometimes. it is a challenge to raise kids in todays environment. but i try my best to show them the rights from the wrong. i hope and i pray Allah will show them the right way.

In the end, i will try my best to bring them up and they will turn out fine. maybe better than me.. Amin

Monday, September 12, 2011

selepas 14 tahun

aku tak nak menulis pasal raya. raya sekarang ni adalah untuk anak-anak aku.. paling aku tunggu-tunggu tetiap kali raya ialah kami adik-beradik baca yasin dan tahlil di kubur ayah.

semenjak ayah takde, hanya pada hari raya aku rasa keluarga aku cukup lengkap. ayah, mak dan adik-adik. cuma ada tambahan suami/isteri dan anak-anak. dan aku selalu terbayang keadaannya kalau ayah masih hidup.

macam tak percaya dah 14 tahun ayah pergi. tetiap kali aku ziarah kubur ayah, aku mesti menitiskan air mata.. almaklumlah aku kan jenis sayu-sayu gitu.. dalam hati ada taman punya kategori. dan macam biasa adik-adik aku ignore je kalau nampak aku start kesat-kesat air mata.. aku selalu jadi orang yang terakhir tinggalkan kubur ayah..

tahun ni aku cakap kat ayah aku sayang dia.. aku mintak dia doakan aku dan anak-anak aku.. aku minta dia doakan aku bahagia dan dipermudahkan perjalanan hidup.. dan aku doakan dia aman dan tenang disana. aku juga cakap kat dia.. nanti kita jumpa lagi..

haish.. masa menaip ni pon air mata ku meleleh-leleh.. memang sinetron btol.. hehehe

nota kaki: aku nak simpan duit nak buat kepok n nisan baru untuk ayah..