Dear friends.. from the bottom of my broken heart

Dear friends,
This is from the bottom of my broken heart.

it is hard to mend your broken heart. but it will heal.
it leaves scar that forever bleed.. only when you allow it to bleed.
it take time to piece it together but it will be whole again.
the most important is you still have a heart. broken and torn but it is yours to keep.

you will feel that all the burden it the world falls on your shoulder.
you find it hard to wake up and face the world.
you feel hopeless helpless.
you wonder whether you are able to survive all this..
trust me.. we are all survivor..

from the bottom of my broken but mended heart.. i truly believe that we are stronger.. we are survivor.. we just need to find the courage and spirit within. Put faith in Allah. forgive yourself because non of this happen just happen. it happens for a reason. forgive yourself because all that happen is not within your control. forgive yourself for making wrong choices..what is past is past. let it be.. let it be.. let it be.. Allah tak kata "Kun Faya Kun" for no reason.. think forward.. be grateful for what you already have. strongly believe that whatever your desire will come to you..

and for all that my dear friends, no matter what is your obstacles, you can go through it.

Count your blessing.. Bersyukur..

alhamdulillah.. kita perlu rasa bersyukur setiap saat dalam hidup ni sebab kita tak tau bila kita akan mati. bila kite rasa bersyukur kita akan rasa dunia ni indah.. semua manusia dalam dunia baik tak kesah laa die tu G.W Bush or Saddam Hussain. Even Polpot tu baik sebenarnya... eh? merepek plak..

org putih selalu suruh kita count our blessing. aku tgh happy giler dan bersyukur sangat-sangat.. usaha aku setiap hari for the past few weeks pays off.. aku sebenarnye sehat.. sangat sehat.. takde ape yg tak kene.. (itu pon selepas test berege RM150 di HUKM) mengesahkan yang aku sehat.. perkara yg aku takutkan tak wujud pon.. so aku akan teruskan dengan terapi Ho'oponopono aku nih.. secara asasnya, teknik Hawaii ni ajar kite untuk memaafkan diri kita dan sayang diri kita dan orang lain. yg lagi indahnya.. kita include sekali istighfar.. "ampunkan dosa aku ya allah".

Every day before and after tido aku buat ni.. "alhamdulillah.. astaghfirullah.. i'm sorry.. forgive me.. thank you.. i love".. kene buat dengan penuh feel.. maafkan diri sendiri.. minta maaf sepenuh ikhlas.. insyaAllah.. minda kita akan terkawal.. kita akan kembali ke fitrah kita.. sebagai roh yang suci.. maka ikatan kita dengan Allah.. akan dekat..

aku baru tau law of attraction.. positive vibrations.. ho'oponopono.. dan segale mak nenek konsep hidup manusia cemerlang yg mat saleh tulis. bila dikaji-kaji.. semua tu ada dlm Quran. . cuma bila diterangkan dalam konsep yg lain baru aku dapat relate dengan life aku.. Nabi suruh kita berbaik sangka.. memaafkan.. jangan ada khianat.. kawal kemarahan.. ada sebabnya.. kerana kita ini dilahirkan suci.. manusia cemerlang.. so kenapa nak follow hati dan perasaan..

ergh.. aku rasa berat plak menulis pasal topik ni..

what u see is not what u think..

aku cuma pakai satu mode dalam dalam satu-satu masa. aku tak boleh nak campur-campur. bila aku happy, aku betul betul happy. kalau sesape duduk sebelah pon boleh terasa aku happy. tapi bila aku sedih, aku betul betul sedih sampai korang boleh nampak mata aku bengkak. tapi aku tak suka sedih lama-lama, marah lama-lama, benci lama-lama.

aku suka happy lama-lama. sebab bila aku happy aku bertenaga.. bila aku happy otak aku clear.. bila otak aku clear.. niat aku jelas.. bila niat aku jelas, kerja aku jadi cepat.. bila kerja aku cepat setel, aku jadi lebih happy.. tapi tak setiap masa kita happy..

ade masa kite kene menangis. menangis boleh basuh hati kita.. especially bila kite menangis kerana taubat. at least kite bleh sejukkan balik hati kita. aku mudah menangis.. so jangan ingat aku depressed bila nampak mata aku bengkak. itu cume kesan dari kejadian semalam.. sebab bila pagi, aku bangun dengan niat nak happy..

just be yourself.. jangan regret ape-ape. keep moving forward.. sometimes it is very hard.. but you'll push through.. it doesnt matter how's today is but it is matter how you finish it.. so be happy even when people think differently about you...

He loves me.. alot

Dia lebih sayangkan aku.. hehehe..
Perhatian dia juga lebih..
Aku lebih disayangi..

Taming the drunken monkey sting by the bee

our mind is like a drunken monkey stung by a bee. the only thing that hinder us from being good and soulful is our tainted mind. this drunken monkey stung by a bee is making our life miserable, sad, angry and feel hatred.

i need to connect myself to my inner soul.. i know i'm a fantastic, angelic person..