somebody said...

somebody said.. i could be a better person with this test.. it will build character.. i'll be wiser and definitely more mature..

somebody said.. i should walk away.. why endure all the hurts and betrayal.. be alone.. do not forgive and most importantly do not forget..

somebody said.. you are lucky.. God loves you so much.. He gives you what you need instead of what you wish for..

i said.. i folloooowwww.. heheheh

New baby and something to else

I have a new baby.. it's red.. and it's a handphone.. after few years using handphone, this is the first time i bought my own.. selame hari ni pakai yang free.. yang orang kasi.. hehehe..

it's not that fancy but what i like the most is now i have my own private radio.. hohoho.. it has all the rah rah fancy functions which i have no idea how to use it.. but being the typical techno phobic like me.. i just use the simple basic funtions (text and voice, picture, and RADIO). muahahahahaha... i'm so happy happy happy... laa laa laaa..

this is one way of making my life less miserable and i enjoy the kids even better.. hehehe.. mane taknya.. sebelah telinga bleh sumbat radio dan guna sebelah telinga layan diorang memekik mekik.. so my blood are less likely to go upstair.. hehehehe.. happy mom.. happy kids.. less cranky mom.. more happy kids.. hehehe..

maybe for some people its not a big deal to have a radio. but i do.. because.. hehehehe.. i feel super happy when i can listen to hindi song.. wahahahahaa... see? i just love hindi songs.. i have no idea how it started.. but i just love it.. i still remember when i was 9 or 10 singing 'tera mujhse se pehle.. kanata koii.. yu hi mere dil lubata koii..' from the film 'aaa gale lag ja'.. (ntah betul ke tak ejaan.. pegi lantak laa kan.. hehehe..). i remember singing some songs from movies like jaanwar, andaz etc with my mom.. she love em.. ye aa.. dulu dating tengok movie hindi laa kan.. hahaha.. i know some of the singers name like kishore kumar, mohamad rafi.. the sisters lata and asha.. and other oldies..
uiks? bakpe aku merepek pasal hindustan plak nih.. hahaha.. bukan tengah cerite pasal phone ke?

ok.. back to the new baby.. since it is red in kaler.. i will call her..(phone got gender ka?) che ah.. hehehe.. pepandai jee.. and since i treat everything as things.. the huha of getting new gadgets will die soon and perhaps i will never refer che ah as che ah anymore.. got it.. and if che af is lucky, she will stay comel for a year.. after that.. hermm... i'm not so sure.. hehehehe...

i'm trying to be extra happy today and the day after today and the next day.. because.. this time around last year.. i was so sad and hurts and betrayed that i thought i could never be the same again.. i thought i could never survived this.. i don't even know how to breath.. alhamdulillah.. after a year.. i'm still the same.. except being bruised and broken and still trying to nurse this huge cut in my heart.. sometimes i feel weak.. i cried and cried because it still hurts.. very very painfully.. and sometimes, when i feel stronger, the pain is still there but it doesn't hurts that much..

so.. che ah do make my day.. i'm not 100% happy.. (who does anyway?) but still i'm happy.. i'm still alive.. boleh peluk cium my sweethearts.. boleh tengok diorang lompat lompat.. che ah help me to be a better mom.. by being there to entertain me.. i'm lonely you know...