My head is not on top of my body

As i wrote earlier, when life throw you a lemon, you make lemonade. I did! and it taste so sweet..

After 4 years, I finally throw my ego, my anger and my grudge against her and accept her openly into my arm.. It is always true, enemies can be best friend when they have common enemy. But that is not why I want to be close with her..

Of course the reason that trigger the communication is him causing yet another trouble and we can smell it a mile away.. but let it be his business.. Allah is the Greatest Planner..

Lillahi Ta'ala, I want her to be my friend. I want to know her. I want her to be my support as much as I want to be hers.

Entahla.. I do not know whether this is an ujian for me or for her.. But whatever it is, my head is so full with so many things to think about until sometimes I felt it was no longer on top of my body.. I do not know where my head is.. shisssh!