I'm angry.. and bitter

Yes.. I'm really really angry.. I'm bitter in fact.. jealous.. rage! all the hatred and horrible feelings bottled up and eat me up inside..

4 years! they have been married for 4 years.. and 5 years ago, they do nothing to stop it.. and now, they still act as if they knew nothing.. and yet they support her.. for god sake! her! the woman who break my heart to pieces.. i wish i could punch them in their face!

bloody kaminey! i'm married to a bloody kaminey.. it make me sick to the stomach.. and i love this bloody bastard with all my heart.. how could i be so stupid.. why my heart can be such a fool.. i trust this bloody bastard with my life and he trampled on it like it means nothing.. and them.. they do nothing? why can't they smack him in the head as it should be.. or better put 1 bullet through his heart.. i'm married to a bloody monster that they called son..

this is not regret.. this is pure RAGE.. i bloody fucking angry..

Wordless Tuesday...

Oh my Heart!

I'm mending my heart.. my broken heart.. it was broken once and now it broke again.. i need to reattached the broken pieces and super-glued it again..

it was silly.. i broke my own promises and there it was.. all the previous mended pieces become torn apart again.. like an old wound bleed again.. and now I need to mend it again..

Oh silly me.. how could I let it broke again.. after so much agonizing pain and suffer I heal it and now I let it bleed again.. Oh my poor heart!

My broken heart led to my senseless mind.. I become deluded and demented (not particularly insane if I may say so my self).. I wish I could do something to end this tormented heart and mind.. oh my life!